When I woke up Monday morning I knew off top that I had eaten some garbage that did not sit right with my stomach. I absolutely hate being sick. My least favorite symptoms are (#1)throwing up and (#2)running a fever.
So refusing to be held back by some lil stomach bug I got out of bed, got dressed, and went about my business as usual. Not even 40 minutes into my first class and I started to feel real uncomfortable and uneasy. Whatever little bug was jumpin around in my stomach wanted out. I had to ditch my bag and fast walk out of the class room just so I could do least favorite symptom #1 in the nearest bathroom.
Part of the reason why I hate symptom #1 is because it makes me feel weak, I get uncomfortable, like I’m losing control of my body’s functions. In my mind I’m asking myself-what do I look like hugged around some toilet?
Expulsion. Spiritually we hold on to some serious garbage that I wish we would learn to expel. We need to expel the intentional garbage we consume like sexual immorality and pride, and we need to expel the garbage thats picked up internally like negative attitudes and insecurity. Handling garbage in our spiritual lives is uncomfortable. Its uncomfortable to address or tell someone about it, it makes us feel weak to even admit that we have garbage in our spiritual systems. We try and get up and go about our business, pretending like its not there. Or for some odd reason we keep it in. Maybe we keep garbage in, never stepping out to address it because we hate the thought of losing control of our spiritual life’s functions, we hate to feel uncomfortable. We don’t want anyone to see what we’re expelling because we’re the good boy or girl and if we keep it to ourselves than we can handle it on our own. We believe that we don’t need God to send anyone along to try and help us out or feel sorry for us or attempt to hold us accountable, we’ll just take care of it on our own. Or maybe its not a control issue, maybe we keep garbage because we refuse to be humbled. Look at me, I rather sit through 40 minutes of discomfort than lower myself to a toilet. But some of us choose to live for years feeling spiritually uncomfortable rather than humble ourselves before the Lord or before fellow believers.
Man we sing all these great songs-mold me,make me, break me-but do we mean it? We compare faith to running a race. True, races can be fun, but theres discomfort, hard work, sweat, sometimes running a good race means pushing yourself to the limit, pushing yourself to a place that you’ve never taken your body before, even if it feels uncomfortable at first.
As a health major, I’ve learned through my studies and from personal experience that once you actually do least favorite symptom #1, you feel much better, and recovery seems to come quickly after expulsion.Not only that but you build your immune system. You’ll be able to better handle that sort of bug if ever you should encounter it again.
The Love that Christ used to free you through His work on the cross, loves you too much to leave you where you are. Growing spiritually is a painful and frustrating thing but He is beautifying us because we are His masterpieces. Ask the Lord to chisel you, but only if you’re goingto make yourself available so that He can do his work.
Don’t say you can’t, cause He died so you could. Just Expel.
“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me” Psalm 51:10